20 January 2011
Having about a year I did not update my blog. Today, I was so disappointed with some matters which place me into miserable. I dont know what to do and what does this imply to me! Should I act nothing in front of them and continue to be a happy girl like usual?
It is very difficult for me, who always show the true feeling on my face, to act nothing in front of them....The things she told me, keep appear each time when I saw her...Dont wish to hide anything inside my deep heart..but it is not so good if I show the feeling out..Thus I choose to express my feelings here..at least, you see it. Or maybe nobody will notice this post at all~
Why you come and blame me? Why dont you tell the truth? You are the one dont wish to come back to hostel..why use my name as a 'tool' for you to staying there?
You are the one choose not to study...why use my name as a 'tool' saying I make you feel stress! That's the way you choose, that's the road you want to take...
Sometimes I really think I am right that I did not advise you to take care of your study! At least, I wont make you think that I am 'STRESSING' you! So, DONT EVER BLAME ME!
Now, what I can do is be myself! Laugh when I am happy, 'Papaya face' when I am sad! But I wont cry anymore! Only stupid girl will cry on such f**king matter!
Another 6 days, I am going back to my LOVELY hometown~ I wont be facing you for two weeks.. When I am back, I will be alright and back to the REAL and HAPPY 044!
Cheers!
p/s: trying to multitasking is a way to learn!
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